One reason why I really just want to start school already is for the main fact that it keeps me busy. I mean I love being on break and being able to just rest and be with family and friends that I don’t get to see everyday. The thing is, all this extra time has really caused me to just think more which is actually a bad thing in my case. I’ve just been so caught up with thoughts about the past, inner problems with myself and just worries about the future. I don’t like being like this and that’s probably why I always try to keep myself so busy. Its just the fact that it allows me to channel my mind away from inner issues and its also just a temporary escape. Looking at how I use things to keep my mind occupied makes me realize that I should really learn to change that. I don’t want to continue to avoid these problems by occupying myself, especially since their my own issues that I have to personally deal with. I’ve just never been good at making myself happy and I know that’s not healthy. I really want to be able to get rid of my negative past, feel good about myself and just be happy. That’s something I definitely need to work on.